PMS ---- Post Mayday Syndrome (according to Nana)
Its been a very long while~~
Aiyo... Nana... Sorrie lah.... Thought we got so many Mayday pics liao.. so never took with you... HEE...... I take with you next time lah.. we can super impose the pictures and we get a picture with MAYDAY
Man am I disappointed.. not at the concert... I enjoyed the concert.... I can rank it as my 3rd best Mayday concert.. HAHA...
1) First ever Mayday concert at Expo in 2001 (i forgot the exact date)
2) Final Home at Expo (think this was in 2005...)
3) Down to Earth at Singapore Indoor (26th April 2008)
4) Jump! at Expo (2nd June 2007)
5) Their comeback concert at Singapore Indoor (25 Oct 2003)
Wow... I went to 5 of their paid concerts, 2 "mini" concerts and 2 short gigs (1 for some charity thingy and another one before their autograph sesssion)... I will still be going no matter what... hahah.. even if I am taking a walking stick like what 阿信 says.. I will still go..
The feeling yesterday was great... It was that feeling of being with a whole bunch of friends just jumping and screaming our heads off.... That feeling of strong friendship ... that feeling of just having fun and not caring about anything else .... Nana... think next time we should reallly go together.. hahaha.. and act like crazy women... ("P)
Mayday has never failed me (hahahha... after some correction from NANA.. opps my English is getting bad.. )... my fren who went with me for the first time told me: "五月天的歌迷果然不一样" ... Yes we are different... We dun need to be coax to stand... we just all automatically stand.... and no one can stop us from that... to stand, jump, scream, make noise and sing together.... Even Mr Jay Chou cannot make the audience do this for the WHOLE concert... We were pratically on our feet from the time Mayday appeared on the stage to the time the lights were back on in the stadium... But I do have to admit ... old ppl like me will still sit down during slow song as I need some rest as well lah... hahaha..
However, I was just rather upset they did not sing 2 of my favourite songs.... "Gong Lang" and "心中无别人".... Oh well... but they sang one of my fave Chinese songs (爱情的模样) which they have not sang for a very long time... Guess everything is a give and take...
A lot of ppl have always asked me why I like Mayday so much... hmmm.. Well...
1) Their brotherhood... 兄弟情..
2) Their songs
3) Their "jokes"
Their songs have brought me through many different periods of my life.... whenever you hear one of the songs.. you will be reminded of some parts of your life associated with that song ... their songs also reminds me of all the friends that have come into my life bah.... that's why I feel Mayday are like my friends... though I know them they dun know me kind lah.... They just give me a very warm feeling... and their songs have really brought me thru many ups and downs in the past 8 years... I forgot when I started liking them... But I do remember how I liked them... one fine day... I was watching the MTV channel and just nice their song <心中无别人> came on.. and i was attracted... at their "tut-tut" look and silly MTV... It really reminds me that it could be something we do with friends... I admire their friendship... though they love to "suan" each other... but that is what we as friends do as welll.... how am I missing Mayday so much now... i hate to think that it will be only next year or even longer than I can see their concert again... and I have that big urge to buy a ticket to Taiwan to see their Taiwan concert... but its different lah... I guess Mayday concerts.. you really have to go with friends...
Now I am having bad PMS.... (Post Mayday Syndrome).... I have been looking forward to this concert for so long... No mattter what happened.. I told myself at least I still have this concert to look forward to... And for that 3 hours....I reallly momentarilly forgot all my problems ... And now... its back to reality.... I have to face the reality tomolo and days to come...
Taking something from what they wrote in their ablum... My 5 brothers... I am waiting for your next concert loh..
因为回忆很美好
所以期待更强烈
I am now in my new dept... and I am not liking it ... I like the friends I have lah... But I hate the work and my managers... Its a strange feeling.. My managers are like my friends sometimes.. but sometimes.. they get on my nerves.... Almost everyday for the past 2-3 weeks I have been working till 9pm or so and also have to bring my work back to do. Its not that I have too much work to do... tis that i have to redo the same old thing over and over again becos my managers wana change it as they dun like the way it was done... I can reformat the report 4-5 times.. and the hateful thing is.. they dun say it all at one go... I know that is part and parcel of work... but sometimes.. shouldn't they make it clear leh?
Guess another thing I hated is that they dun tell me clearly some thing they want.. then I type email to other dept to request for it.. my manager will then say.. oh .. thats not what is needed then she will re-type another email and make changes on my initial email... and its after I asked her to vet my email and she say its OK leh... it makes me look silly and stupid... and it seems I am already well known for being silly and stupid in the Co. already.... Maybe I really am.. oh welll...
Then adding on to the fact that my EX-team needs me to finish Wave 1 of the project with them... That makes me even more angry... I remembered that time my ex-manager asked me whether I did something.. I told her not yet cos I was busy.... I DID not say I will not do it.. she then wrote an email to me saying that I should know it is still my responsibility... OK.. the email got me angry but I have gotten many nasty emails liao so I dun really care about emails anymore... I think what made me super angry was that she actually msg her boss to tell her that I did not want to take responsibility which I did not say so.. and that woman actually msg my current BIG boss to tell him that I say I dun wana take responsibility... Then my current BIG boss came to find me and ask me is that so.... I am thankful my current BIG boss is an impartial person... and he did not listen to those 2 woman... Those 2 woman did not want me in the first place... they were the ones who told me my choice is either to transfer team or to resign... I really wonder if I resigned then... then I would not have faced all this silly things... Maybe I made a wrong choice... I also duno.... I know its wrong for me to harbour hatred in my heart.. but i guess I still cannot really forgive them.... And now... they need anything... will also go thru my fren... they will tell her... then she come and tell me.... OK... I am the bad person... I am the evil person.. I dun wana help you.. I am not helpful... I am not a asset to the company... So it is OK .... I can leave and you all will be happier... Maybe so bah...
Sometimes I wonder... what if I am a different person altogether.. what if I lived a different live... what if I was one of Mayday ppl... would I be faced with the same problems I am facing now... They seem to be enjoying what they are doing... having fun while earning BIG money... but are they really satisfied?
Like other ppl see me.. maybe they will think I am living a good live... nothing to worry about... and alll.... but i do have problems of my own as welll.... guess everyone do have their own set of problems yah.. and we all think only we face that problems.. but guess not...
A lot of ppl problems all lies back to the same issue.. insecurity... uncertainty... dissatisfaction ... envy of others...
What is mine then I always ask myself? guess mainly its envy and insecurity.... PAPA... i know my security should be in You and You alone... why am I still runing around in circles? I really dun wana be like the Israelites... wondering around in the desert for 40 years before going into the Promise Land... Lord, pls show me my identity in You.. pls show me what you want me to do... and pls me help me to forgive as how You forgave me...
Aiyo... Nana... Sorrie lah.... Thought we got so many Mayday pics liao.. so never took with you... HEE...... I take with you next time lah.. we can super impose the pictures and we get a picture with MAYDAY
Man am I disappointed.. not at the concert... I enjoyed the concert.... I can rank it as my 3rd best Mayday concert.. HAHA...
1) First ever Mayday concert at Expo in 2001 (i forgot the exact date)
2) Final Home at Expo (think this was in 2005...)
3) Down to Earth at Singapore Indoor (26th April 2008)
4) Jump! at Expo (2nd June 2007)
5) Their comeback concert at Singapore Indoor (25 Oct 2003)
Wow... I went to 5 of their paid concerts, 2 "mini" concerts and 2 short gigs (1 for some charity thingy and another one before their autograph sesssion)... I will still be going no matter what... hahah.. even if I am taking a walking stick like what 阿信 says.. I will still go..
The feeling yesterday was great... It was that feeling of being with a whole bunch of friends just jumping and screaming our heads off.... That feeling of strong friendship ... that feeling of just having fun and not caring about anything else .... Nana... think next time we should reallly go together.. hahaha.. and act like crazy women... ("P)
Mayday has never failed me (hahahha... after some correction from NANA.. opps my English is getting bad.. )... my fren who went with me for the first time told me: "五月天的歌迷果然不一样" ... Yes we are different... We dun need to be coax to stand... we just all automatically stand.... and no one can stop us from that... to stand, jump, scream, make noise and sing together.... Even Mr Jay Chou cannot make the audience do this for the WHOLE concert... We were pratically on our feet from the time Mayday appeared on the stage to the time the lights were back on in the stadium... But I do have to admit ... old ppl like me will still sit down during slow song as I need some rest as well lah... hahaha..
However, I was just rather upset they did not sing 2 of my favourite songs.... "Gong Lang" and "心中无别人".... Oh well... but they sang one of my fave Chinese songs (爱情的模样) which they have not sang for a very long time... Guess everything is a give and take...
A lot of ppl have always asked me why I like Mayday so much... hmmm.. Well...
1) Their brotherhood... 兄弟情..
2) Their songs
3) Their "jokes"
Their songs have brought me through many different periods of my life.... whenever you hear one of the songs.. you will be reminded of some parts of your life associated with that song ... their songs also reminds me of all the friends that have come into my life bah.... that's why I feel Mayday are like my friends... though I know them they dun know me kind lah.... They just give me a very warm feeling... and their songs have really brought me thru many ups and downs in the past 8 years... I forgot when I started liking them... But I do remember how I liked them... one fine day... I was watching the MTV channel and just nice their song <心中无别人> came on.. and i was attracted... at their "tut-tut" look and silly MTV... It really reminds me that it could be something we do with friends... I admire their friendship... though they love to "suan" each other... but that is what we as friends do as welll.... how am I missing Mayday so much now... i hate to think that it will be only next year or even longer than I can see their concert again... and I have that big urge to buy a ticket to Taiwan to see their Taiwan concert... but its different lah... I guess Mayday concerts.. you really have to go with friends...
Now I am having bad PMS.... (Post Mayday Syndrome).... I have been looking forward to this concert for so long... No mattter what happened.. I told myself at least I still have this concert to look forward to... And for that 3 hours....I reallly momentarilly forgot all my problems ... And now... its back to reality.... I have to face the reality tomolo and days to come...
Taking something from what they wrote in their ablum... My 5 brothers... I am waiting for your next concert loh..
因为回忆很美好
所以期待更强烈
I am now in my new dept... and I am not liking it ... I like the friends I have lah... But I hate the work and my managers... Its a strange feeling.. My managers are like my friends sometimes.. but sometimes.. they get on my nerves.... Almost everyday for the past 2-3 weeks I have been working till 9pm or so and also have to bring my work back to do. Its not that I have too much work to do... tis that i have to redo the same old thing over and over again becos my managers wana change it as they dun like the way it was done... I can reformat the report 4-5 times.. and the hateful thing is.. they dun say it all at one go... I know that is part and parcel of work... but sometimes.. shouldn't they make it clear leh?
Guess another thing I hated is that they dun tell me clearly some thing they want.. then I type email to other dept to request for it.. my manager will then say.. oh .. thats not what is needed then she will re-type another email and make changes on my initial email... and its after I asked her to vet my email and she say its OK leh... it makes me look silly and stupid... and it seems I am already well known for being silly and stupid in the Co. already.... Maybe I really am.. oh welll...
Then adding on to the fact that my EX-team needs me to finish Wave 1 of the project with them... That makes me even more angry... I remembered that time my ex-manager asked me whether I did something.. I told her not yet cos I was busy.... I DID not say I will not do it.. she then wrote an email to me saying that I should know it is still my responsibility... OK.. the email got me angry but I have gotten many nasty emails liao so I dun really care about emails anymore... I think what made me super angry was that she actually msg her boss to tell her that I did not want to take responsibility which I did not say so.. and that woman actually msg my current BIG boss to tell him that I say I dun wana take responsibility... Then my current BIG boss came to find me and ask me is that so.... I am thankful my current BIG boss is an impartial person... and he did not listen to those 2 woman... Those 2 woman did not want me in the first place... they were the ones who told me my choice is either to transfer team or to resign... I really wonder if I resigned then... then I would not have faced all this silly things... Maybe I made a wrong choice... I also duno.... I know its wrong for me to harbour hatred in my heart.. but i guess I still cannot really forgive them.... And now... they need anything... will also go thru my fren... they will tell her... then she come and tell me.... OK... I am the bad person... I am the evil person.. I dun wana help you.. I am not helpful... I am not a asset to the company... So it is OK .... I can leave and you all will be happier... Maybe so bah...
Sometimes I wonder... what if I am a different person altogether.. what if I lived a different live... what if I was one of Mayday ppl... would I be faced with the same problems I am facing now... They seem to be enjoying what they are doing... having fun while earning BIG money... but are they really satisfied?
Like other ppl see me.. maybe they will think I am living a good live... nothing to worry about... and alll.... but i do have problems of my own as welll.... guess everyone do have their own set of problems yah.. and we all think only we face that problems.. but guess not...
A lot of ppl problems all lies back to the same issue.. insecurity... uncertainty... dissatisfaction ... envy of others...
What is mine then I always ask myself? guess mainly its envy and insecurity.... PAPA... i know my security should be in You and You alone... why am I still runing around in circles? I really dun wana be like the Israelites... wondering around in the desert for 40 years before going into the Promise Land... Lord, pls show me my identity in You.. pls show me what you want me to do... and pls me help me to forgive as how You forgave me...
