He's not that into you..

On Friday went with Miss Niyo to East Coast and then to watch the movie He's not that into you... I can't say its a super good movie lah... not one where I will re-watch... To me super good movie=movie i will rewatch over and over again.. But, it did make me thinking...

Wonder why women sometimes belive in those strange lies
1) when a guy is bad to you.. it means he likes you
2) he is just shy... and maybe he will call you sometime when he is not so shy..
3) the guy will come back when he thinks it through
4) the guy told me he is not good enough for me.. he breaks up for my own good..

Those are countless of excuses... but why do we sometimes just belive in those lies leh? I also duno.. maybe we are just think those romantic guys we see in drama serials are real... there will always be a prince charming who is willing to do everything for the girl he loves yet will not choose to be with her becos he is a bad guy or not worth being with..

Well.. not that I have any experience in love at all lah... but sometimes.. I duno whether am I living in a world of my own if I choose to believe in those lies... Especially the lie of there will certainly be someone for me... Hehehe... I guess I just have came to this age where I am desperate for love? Dunno if desperate is the right word to put lah.. Anyway.. thankfully Valentine's Day pass by ... of course I cooped myself up at home... I hate walking the streets on Valentine's Day when every couple out there is so lovey dovey...

I guess... it is true lah... There is no point harping on something that will never happen.. if someone really loves you, he will go all out and all means to make the relationship happen... and I guess there never once was a point where someone really went all out like that for me... hahahha.. not that I wana people to do that... I've heard of "scary stories" of friends trying to reject people who really went all out for them... and I dun wana be put in that kind of situation.. so scary....

I try to tell myself over and over again that it is impossible.. it is impossible .. it is impossible.. but everytime I haboured that little hope that it could be possible... but I do think it is impossible... why would someone like someone like me neh? People can tell me I am not a bad person.. da la da la da la.. all those comforting words.. but sometimes, we just have to face reality bah... If it is singlehood I have to come to terms with... then I guess I have to come to terms with... Its hard and I do feel left out sometimes... but... I guess it is just something I have to accept bah?

Oh well.. dun mind my blabbering... Its always in the month of February when such things just bugs me alot.. hahah... But I guess I just have to wait upon the Lord for whatever He has planned for me.... And one thing is... I have to learn to really wait upon the Lord...

I guess its been some time.. and my cold war with PAPA should end soon... I am trying... and will try to end that cold war... I guess I am so stubborn that PAPA always have to put something in my life... my normal life for me to turn back to Him again..