Back to work again...
CNY came and went like a breeze... I was hoping for a miracle this CNY.. but none happened.. Sis did not come home at all... and in fact made mum angry and dad guilty... I duno what to do.. but it hurts when I see my parents upset... and there is nothing i can do for them... they will just say i dun understand their feelings.. I guess i can never since i may never be a parent... but seeing someone whom u bring up for so many years become like that.. is so hurtful... sometimes i really wish its not what we think... that sis really have some problems.. like those dramas you know... where they go and hide becos they dun want their family to worry... but it does not seem so...
then... i brought work back to do.. but no motivation at all to do it... i stare at the brief... and inside my head.. i keep thinking.. why do i have to do this stupid work when i am so lowly paid... and no one appreciates... for what? for the company? ha! and one day.. this very co. i slog for might just ask me to leave ... and will they do something for me then? no... they won't... life is so sick sometimes... survival of the fittest? ppl who are worthy... they go up to you.. wish u happy new year.. talk to u.. ppl like us? they dun even know our names... they dun even bother... so why shld I bother to slog? God...I know my work is for You... and I guess only that way... I can really put my best to it... i can then bring myself to wake up and walk to that office...
Lord... please...please do something for my mum and dad... i see the emails my dad sent to my sis and i feel so sorry for him... he is sincerely regretting that he did not open the email.. but its not his fault also.. she could have called.. she knows our phone.. but she never called... I dun understand.. i really dun... why PAPA? why? what did we do to deserve this? my mum and dad were so fervently serving in church last time..... my sis was also ... but why now all has changed? why can u just change it back? why can't u just change it back...
anyway... thanks for that little tiny encouragement... haha... though its silly... but it really made me happy momentarily... really... thank you...
then... i brought work back to do.. but no motivation at all to do it... i stare at the brief... and inside my head.. i keep thinking.. why do i have to do this stupid work when i am so lowly paid... and no one appreciates... for what? for the company? ha! and one day.. this very co. i slog for might just ask me to leave ... and will they do something for me then? no... they won't... life is so sick sometimes... survival of the fittest? ppl who are worthy... they go up to you.. wish u happy new year.. talk to u.. ppl like us? they dun even know our names... they dun even bother... so why shld I bother to slog? God...I know my work is for You... and I guess only that way... I can really put my best to it... i can then bring myself to wake up and walk to that office...
Lord... please...please do something for my mum and dad... i see the emails my dad sent to my sis and i feel so sorry for him... he is sincerely regretting that he did not open the email.. but its not his fault also.. she could have called.. she knows our phone.. but she never called... I dun understand.. i really dun... why PAPA? why? what did we do to deserve this? my mum and dad were so fervently serving in church last time..... my sis was also ... but why now all has changed? why can u just change it back? why can't u just change it back...
anyway... thanks for that little tiny encouragement... haha... though its silly... but it really made me happy momentarily... really... thank you...
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hey... stumbled into your blog (once again), and thought these verses might cheer you up a little? I'm into memorising verses from the bible for this year, so as to strengthen myself in the Word of God
(Colossians 3:23)
Work hard and cheerfully at whatever you do, as though you were working for God, rather than for people
(Jeremiah 32: 27)
I am the Lord, the God of all mankind. Is there anything too hard for me?
(Philippians 4: 8)
Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable - if anything is excellent or praiseworthy - think about such things.
Cheers,
Linnie (your sis-in-christ too)
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