Blogging is a pleasure

Hahaha.... Irony for someone who is very irregular at blogging yah... But I do think its a pleasure... reading blogs is a pleasure as well... HEE... I miss Dawnie's blog though... Dawnie... when will you start writing a blog for us to read again leh?


Today went out with the SIM gals... cos Da Jie wanted to pass us her wedding invitation... The first one to get married.... Wonder who is next?? My guess? Either Dawnie or Linnie?? Though age wise... I should be the next in line? HAHAHA.... I wish man.....


Okie... came back and wanted to do my work... But when I on my lappy... I just cannot bring myself to look at the report... And one of the file I saved cannot be opened... "sigh"... guess i have to go to the office early on Monday... hopefully I can wake up...


Lately been really struggling with the issue of anger... Guess I am still very sore at the fact that they "force" me to transfer dept... and then when I transferred... they say I am still responsible for the previous project.... I guess I was so uncooperative and unreasonable cos I was honestly very sore about the whole thing.... And adding on to the fact i felt they were the ones who did me wrong... they were the one who did not want me in the first place... But I realised... in the end... It just made me a more horrible person... I can't say I have fully forgiven them now... Maybe its also not their fault... HA! But I am bad.. I still do think its their fault... ("P) Oh well... stubborn Ayam needs some time to sort out my thoughts lah...


But what have I learnt in it all leh? It is that I should not let the evil one affect my thoughts lah... The other day went CG and we learnt with regards to eh... something to do with anger lah... And i realised during those few days... i reallly keep thinking I was the victim... I keep thinking... they are the ones who did me wrong.. so why should I help them? Why should I take that responsibility? I also duno who is right who is wrong lah.. Maybe they are wrong... If so, I should sitll forgive me.... Maybe I am in the wrong... and if so, then I should change my attitude... I will try.... I can be very stubborn at changing... But I will try... and PAPA.. only you can transform me loh...

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Everytime when it comes to Sunday nights... I just get this horrible feeling... this week as usual I brought my work back to do... But honestly... I got no moood at all to do it... and so... I decided to not do anything... will just have to "face the music" on Monday loh.. hahah... see how it goes lah... the other day saw my boss made some changes to the slides again...if she wana those changes to me made to ALL the slides I will really freak out... One report is already 400 over slides... Imagine 19 reports... And I just dun understand.... when they were finalising the template.. she never say she wana those changes... she say the template looks good... "sigh"... Okie PAPA... I need to love them... I need to love them... I need to love them....

Today is today... I wonder if I can remain in this attitude tomolo... or will i become the sore sore Ayam again?