A bad start or a good one?
Its been so long since I blogged... HA! Anyone missing me? After my last blog, a lot a lot of things happened in my life.
1) We decided to go HK for a holiday at the spur of the moment, went HK and came back. I enjoyed myself. Though thought HK is not my favourite tourist place to visit. Sorrie. HEE..
2) I made a mistake at work which made me feel very stupid and gave me quite a scare that I would be punished for it. This inccident really made me very very sad and disappointed with myself
3) They told me I will be taking up a new project in the office. Something which I did not like at all. They told me it was becos my fren who used to be doing it is very busy and it was also becos my boss who wanted this project back. So I had to take it since I am under him.
4) My boss told me he resigned. Someone whom I thought would stay in the company for very very long.
5) My first Co. D&D. Never attended one at all. Enjoyed myself .
6) Christmas came and Christmas went - met up a lot of people in the midst of Christmas
7) New year came and new year went - managed to catch my Mayday on TV
8) My boss last day - cried on the bus back home. Though I'm not very close to him, but I did think he is a rather nice boss
9) I was getting used to the way my new boss worked. Quite happy cos I was given more opportunties to do some stuff. Though I was really busier then last time
10) I received a pay increment and it is miserable. More miserable then my pay increment at ESPN. I keep telling myself to be contented.
And after allll that............
Yesterday, my boss called me in. I was rather silly. She called and say come in. I was like who is that... So I asked her who is she.. HAHAH... is that silly or what... then she say she is so and so.. So okie, I went in. Then they told me they want to transfer me to another project team cos that team needs people cos that team went through a mass resignation. About 4 people in the team resign together. They say they are freezing headcount and would transfer people internally over. One from our team and one from another team. All going over. I asked them if I have a chance to say No.. They said its decided by the management. They asked me what are my concerns. I told them I enjoyed what I am doing right now. They say dun listen to what other people are saying or why so many people resigned from that team. They say those people are immature and becos one person leave does not mean they have to leave. They say they think I am quite mature and stable in my work that's why they think I should go over. And if I am given a big account means that I am important and so on and so forth. To me... honestly.. it was crap. I told them let me decide over the weekend. I thought I could say no and stay in my current team then.
Then, my small boss asked me for a meeting. She told me about the choice why me, say what I detailed lah.. so on and so forth. That she likes to work with me lah.. blah blah blah..... Then she said I had a choice. And that came as a shock to me. Its either I agreee to the transfer or I resign. She told me I will be under a new lady.. and she knows that I can learn a lot from her. She ask me if I wana meet up that lady... I said of course... to know more mah.. about what I will be doing over there...
Then that lady came we talked for a while. She told me I will be indirectly under her. Actually I will be under another lady who is under her. OKie... She asked me what are my thoughts. Of course I told her that I am apprehensive of changes. Then she said.. oh... this project I will be taking is a tracker.. so not much changes.. But I will also be given more ad-hoc projects to do.. so on and so forth...
Dun understand why do all of them say different things? How do you expect me to believe when one say this, the other say that? First they tell me its not their decision. When I ask them the next team who is going over, they say they've not decided as yet. So are you saying... our team is mangement decide then the other team is they decide their own?
You know.. I rather they be honest with me... If they dun like me in the company... tell me... I can just resign. Maybe I am thinking too much.. But they give me the feeling that they dun wana me... I feel like an orphan that is unwanted... Yes, I do make mistakes... But honestly who dun?? I have to admit some mistakes are I am to blame... But some is you all make those mistakes one mah...
Everything happened just upon the time when I managed to convince myself to be contented with my pay increment and to stay on cos I feel that I can learn from my new boss, can learn from my current big boss and have some job satisfaction in my work as I quite like the project I have on hand. Just when I got used to my new boss style of working... Just when I told myself to JIA YOU and press on until April. I hate changes. I hate having no choices. But it seems the case.
On the bright side, the big boss does not seem as fierce and he is quite a funny person. He is a good fren of my previous boss and he was suppose to be my big boss when I entered the company just that he moved on to a new team and my current Big boss came in to take over our current team. And like what Miss Niyo said.. it might be a good thing after all... And like what Jeanette say... the product categories I am doing now is now broaden so it might just as well give me a better job opportunity the next time I find a job. Whatever it is.. I will wait and see... And if it is what I think that you are forcing me to resign on my own... Then ALL the more I will stay and irritate you.. HAHAHA!
I've attached here a shot from Coffee Prince. Reallly reallly liked this. Thought this is one of the most sweet part of the show. After seeing this.. I reallly reallly reallly wanted a boyfren.. HAHAH... though in real life boyfrens are not like that...Yesterday really wanted someone who can just sing me a song.. to tell me everything is going to be alright.. hahah..But... I had my frens.. Thanks Miss Niyo, Jeanette and Dawnie... Thanks... Your presence all prevented me from thinking too much as well.. I really thank my PAPA for great frens like you all..
"Trust the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understandign; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5-6
PAPA... help me trust You. I wana trust You. I know You have the best for me. And I know sometimes my ways are not Your Ways. I honestly have difficulty trusting now but help me to fix my eyes on You when I start to doubt. I love you Lord.
1) We decided to go HK for a holiday at the spur of the moment, went HK and came back. I enjoyed myself. Though thought HK is not my favourite tourist place to visit. Sorrie. HEE..
2) I made a mistake at work which made me feel very stupid and gave me quite a scare that I would be punished for it. This inccident really made me very very sad and disappointed with myself
3) They told me I will be taking up a new project in the office. Something which I did not like at all. They told me it was becos my fren who used to be doing it is very busy and it was also becos my boss who wanted this project back. So I had to take it since I am under him.
4) My boss told me he resigned. Someone whom I thought would stay in the company for very very long.
5) My first Co. D&D. Never attended one at all. Enjoyed myself .
6) Christmas came and Christmas went - met up a lot of people in the midst of Christmas
7) New year came and new year went - managed to catch my Mayday on TV
8) My boss last day - cried on the bus back home. Though I'm not very close to him, but I did think he is a rather nice boss
9) I was getting used to the way my new boss worked. Quite happy cos I was given more opportunties to do some stuff. Though I was really busier then last time
10) I received a pay increment and it is miserable. More miserable then my pay increment at ESPN. I keep telling myself to be contented.
And after allll that............
Yesterday, my boss called me in. I was rather silly. She called and say come in. I was like who is that... So I asked her who is she.. HAHAH... is that silly or what... then she say she is so and so.. So okie, I went in. Then they told me they want to transfer me to another project team cos that team needs people cos that team went through a mass resignation. About 4 people in the team resign together. They say they are freezing headcount and would transfer people internally over. One from our team and one from another team. All going over. I asked them if I have a chance to say No.. They said its decided by the management. They asked me what are my concerns. I told them I enjoyed what I am doing right now. They say dun listen to what other people are saying or why so many people resigned from that team. They say those people are immature and becos one person leave does not mean they have to leave. They say they think I am quite mature and stable in my work that's why they think I should go over. And if I am given a big account means that I am important and so on and so forth. To me... honestly.. it was crap. I told them let me decide over the weekend. I thought I could say no and stay in my current team then.
Then, my small boss asked me for a meeting. She told me about the choice why me, say what I detailed lah.. so on and so forth. That she likes to work with me lah.. blah blah blah..... Then she said I had a choice. And that came as a shock to me. Its either I agreee to the transfer or I resign. She told me I will be under a new lady.. and she knows that I can learn a lot from her. She ask me if I wana meet up that lady... I said of course... to know more mah.. about what I will be doing over there...
Then that lady came we talked for a while. She told me I will be indirectly under her. Actually I will be under another lady who is under her. OKie... She asked me what are my thoughts. Of course I told her that I am apprehensive of changes. Then she said.. oh... this project I will be taking is a tracker.. so not much changes.. But I will also be given more ad-hoc projects to do.. so on and so forth...
Dun understand why do all of them say different things? How do you expect me to believe when one say this, the other say that? First they tell me its not their decision. When I ask them the next team who is going over, they say they've not decided as yet. So are you saying... our team is mangement decide then the other team is they decide their own?
You know.. I rather they be honest with me... If they dun like me in the company... tell me... I can just resign. Maybe I am thinking too much.. But they give me the feeling that they dun wana me... I feel like an orphan that is unwanted... Yes, I do make mistakes... But honestly who dun?? I have to admit some mistakes are I am to blame... But some is you all make those mistakes one mah...
Everything happened just upon the time when I managed to convince myself to be contented with my pay increment and to stay on cos I feel that I can learn from my new boss, can learn from my current big boss and have some job satisfaction in my work as I quite like the project I have on hand. Just when I got used to my new boss style of working... Just when I told myself to JIA YOU and press on until April. I hate changes. I hate having no choices. But it seems the case.
On the bright side, the big boss does not seem as fierce and he is quite a funny person. He is a good fren of my previous boss and he was suppose to be my big boss when I entered the company just that he moved on to a new team and my current Big boss came in to take over our current team. And like what Miss Niyo said.. it might be a good thing after all... And like what Jeanette say... the product categories I am doing now is now broaden so it might just as well give me a better job opportunity the next time I find a job. Whatever it is.. I will wait and see... And if it is what I think that you are forcing me to resign on my own... Then ALL the more I will stay and irritate you.. HAHAHA!
I've attached here a shot from Coffee Prince. Reallly reallly liked this. Thought this is one of the most sweet part of the show. After seeing this.. I reallly reallly reallly wanted a boyfren.. HAHAH... though in real life boyfrens are not like that...Yesterday really wanted someone who can just sing me a song.. to tell me everything is going to be alright.. hahah..But... I had my frens.. Thanks Miss Niyo, Jeanette and Dawnie... Thanks... Your presence all prevented me from thinking too much as well.. I really thank my PAPA for great frens like you all..
"Trust the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understandign; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5-6
PAPA... help me trust You. I wana trust You. I know You have the best for me. And I know sometimes my ways are not Your Ways. I honestly have difficulty trusting now but help me to fix my eyes on You when I start to doubt. I love you Lord.
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